The things she said on Thursday night won’t stop haunting me. I’m really fucked up. Couldn’t even enjoy something I had been looking forward to for more than a year because how can you have fun when those thoughts are rolling around in your head? Didnt go to any parties on picnic day, ended up sitting at uptej’s kitchen table all night on the verge of tears while I’m sure she was off getting plastered and having more sex with sam. Seriously and now she doesnt want to ever talk to me again? Because I tried to make the situation better for everyone? She can’t run from the truth. If I had sent sam a bunch of lies whatever, or even if I had sent him the entire truth or even snippets, but I kept it really fucking civil. She probably told him I was making it all up anyways. I can’t have respect for someone who is so afraid of the truth.
