decided to xpost this here too because its relevant
See thats the thing about people who have hurt you. There’s going to be that part of you that says “hey, forget you and take that shit somewhere else,” but then you keep wondering how you find them in your life again and again. And simply put ( I rolled my eyes as I typed that because there is no simple way to put this) I feel like it comes down to two things. Firstly, if you were actually hurt, and not just annoyed or inconvenienced, by them it means they had a proximity to your life that allowed them to make you feel that way. And if they were that close to you, it was because you put them there. As for how they always seem to come back, I feel like it ends up with the subconscious thought and hope that if they hurt you once and lost your trust, and you let them back into your life, that it would be the last thing they do again.