And I really dont know how many more times I’ll put myself out there. If she wants me, if she wants this chance to work, she’ll show it, otherwise my friendship can be put other places. The way she talks to me still cursing and telling me to “grow some balls” shows how angry she is, and I have no interest in being friends with someone who is going to repeatedly just dump their anger on me. I’m here expecting things to change, because if they don’t from her end, they will from mine. If she can’t be happy for me being happy when it means me spending time with my friends, how does she think I deal with her having a boyfriend but telling me that she still has feelings for me? Its hard, and shes been making it harder. I guess we’ll see where this goes. If it doesnt work, plenty of things all around to distract me, maybe I’ll get into a quasi relationship to take up my time.
