June 2011
2 posts
May 2011
13 posts
A coward by any other name is still a coward. A whore by any other name is still a whore.
Sure try and back me into a corner and make me say that I want to be your friend. Seriously? And then I don’t know why you say things like oh then we should just stop talking. Of course I’m going to say yes I’m okay with that. I have no interest in begging you to talk to me. If you want to leave me in the dust, I’m not going to run after you. But then you go on and start...
Whoooooooooo do you think you are.
I sure as hell dont know.
pshhhh
*shrug*
“study break” “booty call” meh no difference really.
Pshhhh
I mean if she wants to be all weird that there are other girls in my life now, thats her ordeal. She wonders why I don’t talk to her about it like she talks to me about Sam. Firstly I dont even ask about sam anymore, so her telling me so much is totally her prerogative. And after that there lies the fact that I don’t feel comfortable talking to her about it. I don’t feel...
April 2011
27 posts
bang bang
the witch is dead.
“And oh, of all the things I’ve seen
This has got to be, got to be
The greatest tragedy
Oh you, you let it all slip away
But soon you’ll find
Soon you’ll find yeah
What you can’t replace “
Stuff like this used to make my stomach turn. Not so much anymore? Do I have regrets? Yeah only that I have 2 middle fingers with which to not give a fuck. I said what...
Getting closer and closer to not caring. I guess this is good but fuck her for letting it end up this way.
Hands down one of the most interesting late night conversations I’ve had.
More and more I think about it the more last night surprises me.
“tonights going to be epic” trololo. Laughing right now at that pretty hard.
Whoa
Last night.
Oh and before I forget I wanted to put this down here. She tells me Im being immature about the whole facebook thing. I’m not the one fucking posting shit publicly for everyone to see. Seriously? she cant say it to my face, but she wants to go put it out there for everyone to see? And then the whole blocking thing. Whatever. I really dont need to deal with this crap in my life.
yeah sure things will get easier moving on, but at this rate I’m probably going to even regret more than just trying to be friends after we broke up, might regret going past friends in the first place. I should have seen it coming. I should have known that she would let me down in the worst ways possible.
As expected...
She said she wanted some time off but I can for sure see myself just getting more resentful as days go by. She has continuously been hurting me and if she wants to say that she cares but then turn around in the same conversation and say such mean things to me… why do I want to keep getting hurt. I can be fine without her in my life without her there at all and right now with her walls up,...
The things she said on Thursday night won’t stop haunting me. I’m really fucked up. Couldn’t even enjoy something I had been looking forward to for more than a year because how can you have fun when those thoughts are rolling around in your head? Didnt go to any parties on picnic day, ended up sitting at uptej’s kitchen table all night on the verge of tears while I’m...
It makes sense why she was all of a sudden so okay with me making assumptions. She was already having sex with sam. Such a load of bullshit.
decided to xpost this here too because its...
See thats the thing about people who have hurt you. There’s going to be that part of you that says “hey, forget you and take that shit somewhere else,” but then you keep wondering how you find them in your life again and again. And simply put ( I rolled my eyes as I typed that because there is no simple way to put this) I feel like it comes down to two things. Firstly, if you were actually hurt,...
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The more and more I think about it, I realize that I’m really not at all interested in a Monday - Wednesday friendship and thats really where I see this going. And this is me saying this on a Wednesday, I’m sure these feelings will be exacerbated come Friday and Saturday. Whenever it comes to talking about that all I get...
And I really dont know how many more times I’ll put myself out there. If she wants me, if she wants this chance to work, she’ll show it, otherwise my friendship can be put other places. The way she talks to me still cursing and telling me to “grow some balls” shows how angry she is, and I have no interest in being friends with someone who is going to repeatedly just dump...
Cleared my schedule so I can deal with this shitstorm that’s ruining my life.
As if ruining my birthday wasn’t enough. She had to go and ruin my moms too
What is she trying to threaten by telling me she wants my parents to sit down with her parents. My parents don’t handle my problems for me, I do my own dirty work. I clean my own messes.
I want to see how the master rationalizes this one…
19 “fuck you” ‘s
I’ve abused you really?
Dont give me this shit.
Or maybe tonight was the big night that she was planning to go all the way with him. I can see that as being more pressing than a failing friendship. I’ll just stick with that.
March 2011
38 posts
At some point I feel like just expecting not to be hurt is expecting too much.
She couldn’t just read the email. She asks me a hundred times if I want her to read it or not, because only if i want her to will she do it. No regard to the fact that I wanted her to read it to help us move along, she has no want of her own to take that step in that direction. And then all the Thursday nonsense.
She cant even be straight with me about Thursday and then tries to guilt me into talking to her. When I try to be the bigger person, its my fault for giving up on being friends… really? If you cant even be outright about that, then its really not me thats being the hold up. Hope it was worth it.
And at this point why do I keep beating myself up. I thought she finally saw the light on Monday night but maybe I was mistaken. I’m really not seeing what I have to gain, and I dont know if its her pride, her ego, bitterness and resentment about that blog post, or a fatty combination of all of that, but she doesnt seem to want to show me what I stand to gain either. And at this point I...
